Better late than never right?
So things stayed pretty much the same…about 163.5 ish. It has been a roller coaster of a month to be honest. I’m actually really grateful that it has stayed relatively the same. To have kept off those pesky 5 pounds that piled on last year is such a relief.
So what has been causing me to stagnate? It is a mental battle. When I stumble, I really sometimes just throw the towel in and just say forget it and start sneaking food and doing all sorts of crazy things. I really wish I could stop having such a black and white thinking about the process….I have discussed earlier how I feel that for me moderation is not workable with sugar….so that is black and white isn’t it? so how do I deal with the times that I am practicing eating well and I inevitably stumble…how do I be gentle with myself and just make the best decision in the next opportunity? instead of falling down a self-defeating rabbit hole of hiding out and bad feelings. This is what I am trying to figure out.
One answer is social connection. If I can talk to someone about it right away and just even TALK about the stress or situation that led to the ‘stumble’, I think that helps a lot. I often don’t reach out because the craving monster hits strong and I’m actually not ready to stop quite yet. BUT that is SO counterproductive and I keep going in circles and circles and cycles through the same happenings. I need to learn to just connect and pick myself up ASAP. This requires perseverance and charachter – 2 things I’m sorely lacking.
Weight loss is definitely going to have taught me that if nothing else.
(what I have written above is pretty crappy and vague and half-hearted ….but in the spirit of renouncing perfectionism…I’m publishing it)