It was a difficult week from start to finish I guess. I ended it on Saturday night with a binge on (terrible, gluten free, saw dusty) chocolate chip cookies. I probably had 8 big cookies. Seems crazy when I write it down.
What were the events leading up to the downfall?
-Monday kinda started rough and then I had very carby meals for some self-soothing
-that kept going all week and since they were all ‘good’ carbs (except for Wednesday’s cupcake and hot chocolate…just realized that I had those by re-reading the blog…wow, am I ever self deceived!!)…I thought it would be okay
-then I was left alone with a tub of cookie dough on Saturday…and the rest is history
What have I learned?
-maybe others can self-soothe with food…but I need to find something else. Someone with my history of lacking control over food should I guess.
-if I have a carby meal I should not precede that with more carby meals as eventually I will be faced with sugar and I just DON’t have the power of control when I am cruisin on carbs
Unfortunately, Sunday night was also a binge fest where I had 12 ‘fun’ size choco bars…probs the equivalent to 2-3 full size choco bars. Yeah, so things are a bit out of control.
What is the plan? I’m planning to just go very strict LCHF so that I can get off the crave cycle…argh! Hopefully that will clear my head.