…it is my Holiness.
I’m reading a book called “Passion & Purity” by Elisabeth Elliott (her husband Jim Elliott is the famous missionary who died within minutes of first contact of the most violent people group on earth, a tribe in the Ecudarian jungle…they had only been married a year…after waiting on God for 5 years to be together). The book expounds in one chapter on the wonderfully profound truth that is above….God’s aim is Holiness not Happiness.
It is kinda ?scary? that God’s aim is not what humanity’s common goal seems to be…Ask most people what they want for their future and it will inevitably boil down to, “I just want to be happy.” Most of our seeking and striving seems to have this at its core…
It is hard for us to understand why God wants us to be miserable…and the truth is that God has no joy in our misery. He does indeed want us to be fulfilled. As the author so beautifully puts, “the problem starts when we make up our own minds what will give us happiness and then decide, if we don’t get exactly that, that God doesn’t love us. We slither into a slough of God-hates-me self-pity” (pg. 43) We are choosing misery….even when our beloved is dying, our child is sick, our longing for a spouse is unfulfilled for years or a lifetime…it is our choosing of an earthly perspective which leads into the cold unmitigated darkness. To choose trust and faith in precisely the ‘jaws of sorrow’ can be the most freeing and joyful thing you will ever do….
I know…incredibly HARD to do over and over and over again…but if He really is God, then we seek after our own happiness at our peril and quite frankly in utter foolishness. Instead of fighting this futile battle against God and ending up bitter/frustrated, why not align yourself to His dreams for your life, His aim of Holiness? Perhaps the maker of all that your five senses ever have and ever will experience, the Creator of the known and unknown universe, the God who keeps a count of the strands of hair on your head and chose how many specks of gold to put in the irises of your eyes, has a thing or two to teach you about what will truly fill you up… (just maybe, you know? 😉
Truly we have no other recourse if we want true joy.